"
Try not to bring your friend home much these days"
That was what his Dad told him.
"
We want family privacy time"
What
privacy time? All he knew was that his Dad too brought his friends over to their home. They'd stay late into the night at the living room maybe talking or singing
karaoke or something that wasn't anything
family-ish. Now, he's asking to have family
privacy time. It's not the family time that he was disturbed by. It's the
privacy. All this time he knew that when he brought Andy home would be late into the night, after a movie or supper, when his family's already asleep. And occassionally, Andy would meet his folks when he wakes up the next day. Andy would spend most of time together in his room. Mike knew that Andy, although a regular visitor to his home, was still a little nervous about meeting his folks. So how would that have affected
privacy?
"What
now?' he thought to himself. Mike didn't know what to do. Part of him was angry with his Dad. Part of him is confused as of what to be done now. He'd want to tell Andy right away. He had never kept any secrets from Andy. But this was a little hard for him to say. It was like telling him to stay away from the house. Even how nicely he'd try to phrase it, it would all mean the same.
Stay Away. Mike was lost at what he had to do. He knew it was a
lose-lose situation. If he'd not tell Andy, it would mean that he would be keeping a secret from him but if Mike did tell him, then Andy would be so much more affected that he'd actually stay away from his house and there goes their personal time with each other.
Several times he did want to tell Andy but he ignored the calling. He finally chose to kept it from Andy. It was already so hard to actually start a conversation about it. He had thought about the same thing that had happened with him and Andrew in the past. Mike didn't want to have history repeated. He was scared Andy would do the same. First he'd say things like, "We better go home our own ways. I respect your Dad's request." Then, he'd start using it as an excuse to not come over. Then, it would just be less private moments together and things get distant and more distant. Till there wasn't anymore. That was how things was with him and Andrew.
However, Mike knew that he wouldn't be able to keep this "secret" from Andy forever. He knew that day would come but little did he expect that that day was sooner that he thought. Andy got so angry at Mike for keeping it from him all this while. Mike knew that Andy would never face his family the same way again. That was the other reason why he didn't want to tell. They went their own separate homes that day. Home used to be at Mike's.
Hurt. Angry. Sad. Dissappointed. And many other confused feelings.
Lying in his bed, Mike thought to himself.
"Why can't he understand that it was hard for me to tell?....Why can't he understand that it wasn't easy keeping it from him?....Yet I understand how he feels. Why?"
He needed the warmth of a hug because that night felt like the longest cold night that he'd ever encountered. This was just the beginning of such nights.